I'm just having a very busy and messy life.
First of all, my dating life has been hectic. Basically, one of my friends who I've known for five years has been asking me out. And I was like, why not? I'll see if I like it. So I've been dating him for a while, but I've decided that I just don't see him as more than a friend. So I've been trying to avoid the subject with him. But then my other friend -and ex boyfriend- who is also friends with the guy I've been dating, and knows and has told me the other guys feelings for me, started asking me out. Finally he was just like, "I'm not going to stop asking you till you go on one date with me" and I don't want to because I don't see him as more than a friend either. So for a while I had the both of them trying to hold onto me when we were all together. But then the guy I've been dating found out today that I know about his feelings, and I like this other guy but I didn't want to tell the guy I've been dating cause he has depression issues. But I told my best friend that the guy I like (but I said "The guy I told you about last night" instead of "the guy I like") is going to my choir christmas concert tonight, and she started blurting out that I liked him and when the guy I was dating asked about it, she was like, "Oh yeah she likes this guy." So now he's depressed. But right before I walked into my classroom, he was like "I like you," and I was like, "Yeah...I know."
and then he was like "Do you like me?"
and I kind of walked into my classroom, expecting him to follow me, but when I put my stuff down, all ready to turn him down, I turned around and he wasn't there. So I thought he was outside waiting for me, so I go back out and he's no where to be seen.
so yeah, my dating life is complicated.
And then my scheduale is busy as well.
Monday nights I have rehersal for varsity choir, but because the girls are going to a major competition in febuary, I have to go to another after school rehersal.
So this weeks scheduale was this;
Monday; two hour rehersal
tuesday; Recital for voice lessons (whoo Oh Holy Night!)
Wensday; see, usually I have youth group but my bff Ari (same bff who spilled the beans on who I like) had a performance and she wanted me to go, so I was going to skip youth group to go to it, but then I found out I had rehersal for choir so I told her that I couldn't go, so she got upset but then whenI got to choir my director anounced that it was canceled, so then I ended up going to her thing after all.
Thursday; choir concert
Friday; I have to face paint sicty kids
Saturday; rehersal for choir and then a dance after the reception.
Sunday; church and piano recital.
Not to mention the pounds of homework I have due each day, especially for English AP and I have to finish Scarlet letter before tomorow and I'm only half way done so I don't know how thats going to work.
And then I have to somehow make a chart of the facepainting I can do and get face paints and glitter...
and THEN I'm trying to get my permit, but this state has a ridiculous drivers licence policy. They took Drivers ED out of my school and I couldn't take it the last year they had it because my birthday was just after the school year ended. So basically when my parents finally let me take drivers ED, my dad decided to do the home taught version because it was a hundred dollars cheeper. Bad idea. I'd rather write than drive, so it took me six months to get my hours and pass the practice tests.
So thanksgiving, we get everything signed and I have a progress report that I'd just gotten the friday before that stated that I hadn't been absent, but no, is that enough? apparently not. We get down the the DMV and they're like, "you have to get an actual form signed by the school saying that you've been going to school." so I get in trouble because I was apparently supposed to read the giant packet of government stuff, because I totally want to read that.
So I get it signed and we go down there yesterday morning-of course my mom's new GPS takes us on the compleate other side of town so I'm dragged all over town before we finally get there. And my dad, being paranoid, had signed all of the forms, including the one that said he'd taught me behind the wheel. And they flipped out when they saw that, so they were like, "no, he has to be here with you so he can swear that he didn't do that." but my dad at that moment was in a meeting, so my mom and I could go drag him out of work and make him come down to the DMV office. So once again, my hopes of getting a permit were thwarted again.
But I guess now dad and I are even.
At the same time this is all happening, I've been trying to finish and publish my first book, and I'm almost finished I've just got to start looking for an editor. And I need more time to write. I haven't written in a while because this week is so hectic. I don't know if I'll be able to get through this.
So I really do hope that I survive. If you siddenly hear about some chick who randomly killed over because of stress, don't be suprised.

Till I actually have time and a life,
Alice
P.S; I will talk more about my story when I get closer to finishing it.